xavierhutcherson replied to your post: xavierhutcherson replied to your post: Oh…

stfu we already worked this out and I’ll be meeting with her next year~

unless you get rejected >;o

xavierhutcherson replied to your post: Oh Seniors..

Wenxi and I are gonna be at UCR hayyYYYY

no gtfo, she’s mine. 

Yesterday, 5/22, it was your graduation. You’re not high schoolers anymore… you’ve graduated from high school, and you’re off to do better things… There are many people that I’ll miss, but I know I will miss a few special seniors. It didn’t really hit me that they’re leaving until last night when I sleep (also the time I start thinking).

Wenxi… Haha, you’re the first person I told I was gay, and guess what! Turns out you were bi! Coincidence? More like fate. It was nice knowing that I wasn’t the only LGBTQ in the school. I’m so proud of you and how you graduated high school… You’re going UC Riverside… so far… And I hope that you visit often :]… 

Kelly… You’re one crazy bitch… haha, you’re the first girl to ever show me your hairy-ass armpits! You’re special, and I’ll miss you like hell, along with Wenxi of course :P. Gurl, you ain’t fat. You’re hella cute, slim, and you got your curves! You’re sexy, and don’t let any guy, even me, tell you that you’re not!

Joseph… OH MY FUCKING GOD… You’re ♥… Straight Boyfriend, don’t go yet! I still want my huggles! I don’t want you to leave me :( If I had to choose between you, Wenxi, or Kelly, I will definitely choose you (NO OFFENSE WENXI AND KELLY :D, but yall know the conditions) and I know you’re going to city and is visiting often, but I need to get my daily dosage of huggles :( Please don’t go, I’ll become emo… You’re just what’s sort of left to show my affection towards… I can’t do anything with May because of well.. yaknow… and you’re just… there. You let me hug you and other crap… and I just don’t want to let you go D:…

Why can’t I go to Long Beach for a dragonboat race? My parents are being so uncooperative >_> Why can’t I go? They say it’s too far and because it’s dangerous (water-wise) and well, I can swim, and my sister gone farther. Earlier in the year, I asked them to go to Canada during the summer alone, They let me. Canada is FUCKING 17 HOURS AWAY AND LONG BEACH IS ONLY 7! WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU LET ME GO SOMEWHERE 17 HOURS AWAY AND AT THE SAME TIME, I CANT GO SOMEWHERE 7 HOURS AWAY. All he fucking does is yell at me, and threaten me, because he can’t say shit to make me not go. My dad has fucking anger problems and is just being so stupid -.-

Although I didn’t cry while reading your letter meant for me, but that didn’t mean I felt sad. I’m glad you’ve realized what position you’ve placed me in, but is it possible? Possible for us to still be best friends while you’re with him? We got 2 classes with each other, and we spend about the first 5 minutes of lunch with each other, but in my opinion, that just isn’t enough. I’m used to the way we were together everyday, every time. One day we were close, as if we were glued onto each other, the next day… well, you’re with him. All, if not most, of the time. It’s as if he ripped us apart. All I am left is just… a third-wheel. As he stepped up to earning the boyfriend-status, I’m here… making room for him, and there isn’t any other way but to step down and end up as friends with you. You spend time with a lot of time with him, and during some of those times, I try to show that we still have that… best friendness by cock-blocking, but it isn’t enough to fill the emptiness, and me cock-blocking isn’t as successful, knowing that he is more dominant.

Haha… So… where does that leave us? Are we best friends or what? You’ve realized what you’ve done, and I’m just standing here, waiting for things to go back to the same. But how long will I have to wait? It’s been over a month… For some reason, I feel as if things will never be the same, even when he goes off to college. Also, I think he truly does not like me. I just feel like… you’re somewhat making him be my friend. 

If you feel bad/sad whenever you leave me… then why don’t you change that? When I’m with you, and you know I will be there with you during school, why don’t you just… make room for me? I’m sorry if I ask for too much, but you guys can have your time afterschool. I just want the time that we spend together be special, because when I’m with you, he is also. You both are cuddling and shiz, and I’m here, walking behind you. Sure, I have my straight-boyfriend with me, but I can’t do all the things that you both can.

I feel lonely… and empty. At school, afterschool, and at home. I don’t talk to as often as school, because I want to show that I don’t need you. That’s the reason I  try my best to ignore that fact that you’re there, but I just can’t. We’re drifting apart, and you know it. And now, I’m just trying to put on a facade and show that you can go. But the truth is, I don’t want you to go. It’s not that I hate you, I feel happy for you, I truly do, I love you. Love you like a sister… but he’s there.

I know that he’s a senior, I know that he’s about to go to college, and I know that he won’t be at school anymore, but what will happen to us? Will we revert back to the way we were? I don’t know. I don’t want time alone to think about it. I just want time with you. Can you understand that? 

It isn’t your fault, but at the same time it is. I understand the circumstances, but while you’re having a great time with him, I’m not. I already know it’s Him over Me, but… I miss you. That’s all I have to say. I miss you. I miss the times we had together. I miss the silly things you do, I miss the asian-club practices we had together, I miss the things we do in class, I miss the FYC practices, I miss the way we’re both retarded in our own way, I miss the laughs we shared, I miss the way you put me first, I miss talking to you, I miss being with you, I miss torturing you, I miss going to places with you, I miss waiting for you, I miss seeing you, I Miss You.

~From your …Bestfriend?… Fattimon

I honestly don’t know what to do for Mother’s Day. I’m thinking of buying her flowers and a cake, but it seems so lame, and at the same time, I don’t what else to do… D; Can anyone help me?

I think I am somewhat retarded. I do the most awkward things in public, at school, with friends, and at home. I just do the things you’d never think I would do. But aren’t we all retarded in our own way by a certain extent?

Well, nothing has been going on… my grades are doing fine (Better than the 2.5 I had) and my love life is going the way I want it to be. OHHH

My best fwend, Yams, She’s PMSing all the time. It’s just ughh, and her unofficial boyfriend, they cuddle everywhereee and he’s stealing her! I want my yams back… ;___;

AND TOMORROW! In 7 hours or so, I will be preparing for another DragonBoat Race! :D The CDBA Regional Regatta! Instead of racing with my school’s team, I’ll be racing (along side with some friends) with Ripple :o. Since we joined not too long ago, we’ve been placed on their C boat (Altius, their Recreational boat) So ya!

Nothing new. Just a normal life to me. AND ONE LAST THING.

MY FUCKING PHONE, I WANT MY FUCKING HTC INCREDIBLE S BACK

This morning, at 5:00, it was working fine. At 5;30… it just gave me a black screen… So I took out the battery and placed it back in the way its supposed to be, and now it won’t turn on. It’s been 14 hours, and my phone is still not working!

Can anyone help me?

I have a HTC Incredible S :(